Chewy's story

My fetich story starts probably somewhere around 2017, when I met a friend from South Africa :) He was a pup at the time and the first to talk about it to me. I used to be really shy and didn’t dare much back then, but he convinced me to go to a fetish party in Brussel (called “revelation”). That party really hold the name well because it was for me a revelation haha.

From there, I got to know bit more about what fetish I like. With trials and meets I ended up liking a lot bdsm and pup world, discovered I was more of a dom when it comes to kinks. 

At parties I ended up playing with puppies sometimes and I really found the gear of the neoprene pup hood really sexy, I don't really know why. Although I loved the gear and and could meet puppies every now and then at parties, I couldn’t help but to envy those guys who dared to wear them and be silly. I always wanted to let myself go and do silly stuffs, but me being shy always blocked me.

It’s only years later, in 2023, we were going to La Démence cruise and one of the parties had for theme “fetish” Although I had already quite a few harnesess of different types by then, I got triggered by that particular party theme. A friend of mine told me he would get a cheap puppy hood for that theme, and I found the idea so attractive I did the same. Imagine that: I had the opportunity to wear a hood on a party, with the theme made for it, with a friend so I couldn’t feel alone trying it. And if I didn’t enjoy it, I could just remove it and put it in a “fetish desguise” box.

Little did I know, it turned out that putting on the hood was the one kick I needed to fully explore my kink. When I describe it, how I felt, the closest I can come to is compare it to the movie “the mask” (with Jim Carrey). The more I had the hood on, the more It really felt as having a double personality. In some way, having the hood on would give me the anonymity to finally be able to express this part of myself I had so deeply buried inside of me all this time.

From that point, chewy was born  and all the parties I would do, I would wear the hood. Little by little, at each party, I was discovering chewy’s personality, almost as if it was someone else. As soon as I would remove the hood, that silly boy would be silenced as if I turned off a switch.

Now comes the latest part of my story : this summer 2024, I was laughing and playing with a guy and all of a sudden, I was surprised to see myself being without the hood and yet so close to chewy’s behaviour.
That’s when it struck me: it was not a double personality but it was chewy reaching the point where it becomes me and me becoming chewy. I realised then that I don’t need the hood anymore to unlock that part of me I always wanted!
So, if I had to summarise in a few words : expressing my fetish helped me discover myself even more and become more the man I wanted to be. Chewy definitly left his paw print deep in me and is today completely part of me!